Know some of you arent good in eng~
but i still gonna use eng xD
Found that i had changed a lot ~
From primary to secondary to high school~
Those interval i had changed~
Changed both physically and mentally~
After 2 days~
Gonna go for another new level~
College life~
Haiz~
Thoughts kept swirling in my minds~
Future , present and the past~
A lot are gonna change~
I dnt know i am gonna change or not~
If i dnt~
I know that it will affect my future~
And the people around me~
But if i changed~
I would never find my oldself again~
A lot are need to be consider~
Financial , network status , studies , being more independence~
And a lot more~
Man~
I really dnt know whats going to happen when the life starts~
After much thinking~
Decided to continue to be under the Boy's Brigade~Too
Eventhough i might not be a good NCO~
But i know~
If i leave now~
It will not help me or any others~
But can i really digest BB and my college life?
Too many things to think~
Too many feelings to express~
In such little words and time~
Am i still too naive?
Is my behaviour too childish?
Should i change who am I?
These days day day come out with friends~
Before that already became numb- -
Day day stay at home only playing computer or reading~
Same as dying that time~
Maybe cant do that after start school le~
Gonna miss it~
Unlucky these days= =
Car stuck at hoover square due to parking overtime = =
Car struck into another car while reversing= =
Really make me speechless zzzz
Too many things to say~
But dnt know write what le ><
Well~
Thats all for now~
God Bless all who view this blog~
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Botak life Inside Kem Bumimas
First day inside kem bumimas,i dislocated my ankle again zzzzzzzzzzz
Thx God that it wasnt serious.
Inside the first day , i meet some old friends and some from life camp ,which made my life in the camp first few days not that boring at all.
First few days our life is just eat and sleep then eat and sleep again , we were treated like pigs zzzzzzz
then all of us went to cut our hair into...BOTAK - -
Many hesitated but still cut ~~
Just after nt more than a week , we have our holiday for easter day and qing ming.
Then when 2 time we went into the camp ,the real work started.
we had to wake up early everyday to do brush and bath so that we could be in time for que up at 545pm.
then we had to go to class for lesson in modul then afternoon we had TTS,Marching,sukan creativity kayak lesson,compass lesson , and first aid lesson.
At night we had mentor mentee , Rohani , ceramah or other activites.
not to mention Games activites in the camp.
The malay dnt allow me play futsal as keeper as they looked down on me
haiz.....so me and my firends played frisbee that was brought in by me.
Inside the camp i meet some christian friends.
we had small group every sat and sunday.
I could feel the holy spirit touched me one time while we were having small group...
It was when a guy name ben hang was sharing his exp made many images run through my brain.....tears started rolling down until finally i cried....
Atfer that day...i could feel that the HOly spirit has been guiding and protecting me all the time when i was inside.....
It helped me gone through many obstacles and temptation.
And many homework needed to be learn inside.
As i had some problem with some particular persons inside that are just not that cute.
Well now i am having holidays and actually i had a lot to write but just lazy to write it out xD
May God Bless all who read this blog.BB
Thx God that it wasnt serious.
Inside the first day , i meet some old friends and some from life camp ,which made my life in the camp first few days not that boring at all.
First few days our life is just eat and sleep then eat and sleep again , we were treated like pigs zzzzzzz
then all of us went to cut our hair into...BOTAK - -
Many hesitated but still cut ~~
Just after nt more than a week , we have our holiday for easter day and qing ming.
Then when 2 time we went into the camp ,the real work started.
we had to wake up early everyday to do brush and bath so that we could be in time for que up at 545pm.
then we had to go to class for lesson in modul then afternoon we had TTS,Marching,sukan creativity kayak lesson,compass lesson , and first aid lesson.
At night we had mentor mentee , Rohani , ceramah or other activites.
not to mention Games activites in the camp.
The malay dnt allow me play futsal as keeper as they looked down on me
haiz.....so me and my firends played frisbee that was brought in by me.
Inside the camp i meet some christian friends.
we had small group every sat and sunday.
I could feel the holy spirit touched me one time while we were having small group...
It was when a guy name ben hang was sharing his exp made many images run through my brain.....tears started rolling down until finally i cried....
Atfer that day...i could feel that the HOly spirit has been guiding and protecting me all the time when i was inside.....
It helped me gone through many obstacles and temptation.
And many homework needed to be learn inside.
As i had some problem with some particular persons inside that are just not that cute.
Well now i am having holidays and actually i had a lot to write but just lazy to write it out xD
May God Bless all who read this blog.BB
Monday, March 22, 2010
Being a life camp volunteer...
On march 15-19 life camp...
it was my first time as a volunteer....
I was nervous and scared that i will did things wrong...
the first day i went in , i knew no one= =
only some who were volunteers for the life camp be4 i remembered them~
but in the end~we didnt speak- -
It was the life camp for Bintulu students~
100% no people i know~
THx God.On the first day i went inside to prepare for the camp~
I met friends that i can talk to.
Finally i could talk~
Then we intro ourselves to each other at night.then we went to sleep and the real fight beguns.
We woke up early and went to make our last preparations.
Then , we wait for the arrival of the campers~
I was busy as a bee- -as i was the one taking photoes for those who dnt have~~
I even print wrong for some people thus need to reprint again= =
In the end i finally finished the job and went down to talk with my campers which are campers of blue lagoon W.
Too bad time was short as i was too busy- -
But they were easy to commuincate and i had no problem with them ,at least not much-= =
I even make friends with them.
During the camp , i suddenly felt a strong urge to wish that they can learn the real meaning of this camp after becoming friends with them.
I was nervous when doing my job and kept asking the others senior volunteers and those who are the same as me who are first time.
Eventhough i know i am asking a bit too much , but i cant stop as i feared that i might do things the wrong way= =
At the end of the camp~
The result was quite satisfying....
i even nearly cried.....although tears dropped down.
on the last day~campers shared their feelings with everyone and all were quite satisfying...
one of the politicians even came to support us.
I dnt knw what to write more about this camp...coz there are too much to be written and mostly cannot be expressed through words...
But i wanna thx all the campers that gave me the chance to serve and thx all the advicer and teachers and community members for the teaching and advice..
I dnt knw what more to say....as i am too tired and mixed emotions.
If those who nvr went to life camp be4.It ur chance to go for it.
I can tell u.U will nvr regret it.
If u are asked , dnt hesitate go for it.It will change ur view of life.
It is all for now.
May God Bless all who saw this blog.
it was my first time as a volunteer....
I was nervous and scared that i will did things wrong...
the first day i went in , i knew no one= =
only some who were volunteers for the life camp be4 i remembered them~
but in the end~we didnt speak- -
It was the life camp for Bintulu students~
100% no people i know~
THx God.On the first day i went inside to prepare for the camp~
I met friends that i can talk to.
Finally i could talk~
Then we intro ourselves to each other at night.then we went to sleep and the real fight beguns.
We woke up early and went to make our last preparations.
Then , we wait for the arrival of the campers~
I was busy as a bee- -as i was the one taking photoes for those who dnt have~~
I even print wrong for some people thus need to reprint again= =
In the end i finally finished the job and went down to talk with my campers which are campers of blue lagoon W.
Too bad time was short as i was too busy- -
But they were easy to commuincate and i had no problem with them ,at least not much-= =
I even make friends with them.
During the camp , i suddenly felt a strong urge to wish that they can learn the real meaning of this camp after becoming friends with them.
I was nervous when doing my job and kept asking the others senior volunteers and those who are the same as me who are first time.
Eventhough i know i am asking a bit too much , but i cant stop as i feared that i might do things the wrong way= =
At the end of the camp~
The result was quite satisfying....
i even nearly cried.....although tears dropped down.
on the last day~campers shared their feelings with everyone and all were quite satisfying...
one of the politicians even came to support us.
I dnt knw what to write more about this camp...coz there are too much to be written and mostly cannot be expressed through words...
But i wanna thx all the campers that gave me the chance to serve and thx all the advicer and teachers and community members for the teaching and advice..
I dnt knw what more to say....as i am too tired and mixed emotions.
If those who nvr went to life camp be4.It ur chance to go for it.
I can tell u.U will nvr regret it.
If u are asked , dnt hesitate go for it.It will change ur view of life.
It is all for now.
May God Bless all who saw this blog.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Consulting work.....
These few years of school life , consulted some friends....
It was really ridiculous, me , a ordinary , stupid , and not to mention slow in action kind of guy consulting.Could you believe it????
Haiz.........Tell the truth , i didnt believe it myself either.
Those years were the start of the journey of my PANDA EYES= =
It wasnt easy.
No matther what condition , i had to answer there question without hurting them directly and have to try to make them happy= =
Well there are a lot of problems but better not to be written here= =
It would take a long time to finish too- -
Finally now , i can 90% confirm i had done my work....
Just getting them into religous take a lot from my age= =
All have graduated from their problems le :D
Finally my panda eyes are getting shallower:D
Well, my guest is , it would get darker ,when particular person nudge me or sms me bah- -
until then-= =
God Bless me= =
Well,thats all.
May God Bless All who saw this Blog.
It was really ridiculous, me , a ordinary , stupid , and not to mention slow in action kind of guy consulting.Could you believe it????
Haiz.........Tell the truth , i didnt believe it myself either.
Those years were the start of the journey of my PANDA EYES= =
It wasnt easy.
No matther what condition , i had to answer there question without hurting them directly and have to try to make them happy= =
Well there are a lot of problems but better not to be written here= =
It would take a long time to finish too- -
Finally now , i can 90% confirm i had done my work....
Just getting them into religous take a lot from my age= =
All have graduated from their problems le :D
Finally my panda eyes are getting shallower:D
Well, my guest is , it would get darker ,when particular person nudge me or sms me bah- -
until then-= =
God Bless me= =
Well,thats all.
May God Bless All who saw this Blog.
SPM out tomorrow...
Haiz....
one of the turning point of my life is near...
Tomorrow, SPM result is gonna out..
i wasnt pressured until just now my friends keep saying those things while we were eating= =
well , what can i say?????
i can only put it into God's hand.
Kinda furious when my friends use my Facebook acc to write funny things zzzzzzz
make people misunderstood zzzz
Well , God Bless all who are taking their SPM result romorrow .
God Bless u all and have a sweet dreams tonight.
one of the turning point of my life is near...
Tomorrow, SPM result is gonna out..
i wasnt pressured until just now my friends keep saying those things while we were eating= =
well , what can i say?????
i can only put it into God's hand.
Kinda furious when my friends use my Facebook acc to write funny things zzzzzzz
make people misunderstood zzzz
Well , God Bless all who are taking their SPM result romorrow .
God Bless u all and have a sweet dreams tonight.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Pass my car license
I passed my car license:D
all thx to the support given by my friends:D
most of all..
thx God for giving me wisdom ,confidence and a calm mid:D
may God Bless u all
all thx to the support given by my friends:D
most of all..
thx God for giving me wisdom ,confidence and a calm mid:D
may God Bless u all
Monday, March 1, 2010
Never lie
***Being lied can hurt deeply***
***it make us lost trust in them***
****we will think long for the reason why they lied****
***we would cry because of them****
***we would be sad because of them***
****we would be moody because of them***
*LIE*
**If only this doesn't exist**
***all will be good***
*eventhough sometimes we lie*
*but we need to have a reason,a good reason*
*or*
*it might just hurt others deeper than you can imagine*
-I would rather be hurt directly-
-Than being hurt because of lies-
+even the smallest lie+
~Those who thought i am a fool~
^I am not^
+So please+
...Dont hurt me even more again...
May God Bless All Who saw this Blog
-END-
***it make us lost trust in them***
****we will think long for the reason why they lied****
***we would cry because of them****
***we would be sad because of them***
****we would be moody because of them***
*LIE*
**If only this doesn't exist**
***all will be good***
*eventhough sometimes we lie*
*but we need to have a reason,a good reason*
*or*
*it might just hurt others deeper than you can imagine*
-I would rather be hurt directly-
-Than being hurt because of lies-
+even the smallest lie+
~Those who thought i am a fool~
^I am not^
+So please+
...Dont hurt me even more again...
May God Bless All Who saw this Blog
-END-
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Love ur Family
当我看到一个人得blog后，让我回想起我以前是多么恨我的家。。。。。。。。。
可是也让我回想到父母所做的一切是因为他们爱我。。。。。
我以前嫉妒弟弟，因为常常有事都是我的错，每次爸爸妈妈都叫我要让他们。。。。
我还被赶出家过。。。。想到就会很伤心。。。。。
妈妈也曾经吗我是笨蛋，没用，为设么她会生我。。。。。。。。。。。。
当我听到时。。。。心里是多么难过。。。。
我的习惯很多，改了一个又有一个。。。我试着改变。。我很努力了。。可是。。还是被骂的很惨，也当场哭了。。。。。。想起来这些事业让我的眼泪在电脑前不停流下。。。。。。。
我还骂了她。。。也常常骂她。。。。。可是我很伤心。。伤心她骂我。。。。
可是我更伤心的是，why我这么笨，这么没用，让妈妈伤心，让妈妈生气。。。。
我每次骂她后，心里都会不爽。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
因为大了后，我才明白，妈妈爸爸是很爱我的。。。。。。
虽然我有时还是会和他们吵，可是，我会尽量避免。。。
那些看这个blog 的朋友们，不要因为妈妈爸爸生气骂你就认为他们不好。。
他们是太爱你了，不懂该how表达罢了。。。。。。
他们骂你，也都有原因。。。。。
到有天他们连理都不理的时候。。。
到时才是你该伤心的时候。。。。
好好对待他们，愿主与你们同在。。。。
可是也让我回想到父母所做的一切是因为他们爱我。。。。。
我以前嫉妒弟弟，因为常常有事都是我的错，每次爸爸妈妈都叫我要让他们。。。。
我还被赶出家过。。。。想到就会很伤心。。。。。
妈妈也曾经吗我是笨蛋，没用，为设么她会生我。。。。。。。。。。。。
当我听到时。。。。心里是多么难过。。。。
我的习惯很多，改了一个又有一个。。。我试着改变。。我很努力了。。可是。。还是被骂的很惨，也当场哭了。。。。。。想起来这些事业让我的眼泪在电脑前不停流下。。。。。。。
我还骂了她。。。也常常骂她。。。。。可是我很伤心。。伤心她骂我。。。。
可是我更伤心的是，why我这么笨，这么没用，让妈妈伤心，让妈妈生气。。。。
我每次骂她后，心里都会不爽。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
因为大了后，我才明白，妈妈爸爸是很爱我的。。。。。。
虽然我有时还是会和他们吵，可是，我会尽量避免。。。
那些看这个blog 的朋友们，不要因为妈妈爸爸生气骂你就认为他们不好。。
他们是太爱你了，不懂该how表达罢了。。。。。。
他们骂你，也都有原因。。。。。
到有天他们连理都不理的时候。。。
到时才是你该伤心的时候。。。。
好好对待他们，愿主与你们同在。。。。
Sorrow.Happy,Anger,Jelousy
Suddenly a swirl of sorrow appeared in my heart..tears rolling down for no reason....why?I really dnt know.......
Peopl have sorrow happiness anger and jelousy....
But to me,happy i really a stranger to me......it appears and gone in an instant......
I was suppose to be happy...but sorrow will just suddenly appear to overcome it....
No one to cry to...no one to speak to..no one to chat to......
It burns to have this feeling and cant release it......
Even those that i trust...i dont release to them...because i dnt want them to share my bad feeling , just wanna share my joy with them so that there will not be people having sorrow or bad feeling anymore....As long as all my friends are smilling...it doesnt matter to me.........
Even those who are down...actually as long as one use an open mind and happy heart to accept this world no matter how bad is ur circumstances....you will feel happy..
We should always laugh because we are happy and not laugh to be happy....
Nvr give up on hope.Also pray to God to give power to overcome our obstacles , give us wisdome to control our emotion and bless all to be happy from the deep of their hearts....
May GOd Bless All who read this Blog~
Peopl have sorrow happiness anger and jelousy....
But to me,happy i really a stranger to me......it appears and gone in an instant......
I was suppose to be happy...but sorrow will just suddenly appear to overcome it....
No one to cry to...no one to speak to..no one to chat to......
It burns to have this feeling and cant release it......
Even those that i trust...i dont release to them...because i dnt want them to share my bad feeling , just wanna share my joy with them so that there will not be people having sorrow or bad feeling anymore....As long as all my friends are smilling...it doesnt matter to me.........
Even those who are down...actually as long as one use an open mind and happy heart to accept this world no matter how bad is ur circumstances....you will feel happy..
We should always laugh because we are happy and not laugh to be happy....
Nvr give up on hope.Also pray to God to give power to overcome our obstacles , give us wisdome to control our emotion and bless all to be happy from the deep of their hearts....
May GOd Bless All who read this Blog~
2nd life camp experience
venthough this is the 2nd time i joined the life camp,but the time the pastor said his story again , it made tears rolled in my eyes.....
Everyone trying their best just to live for the present and not the future.I failed to pull many to the life camp , but i will continue to try no matter how stubborn they are.
I do not wish to see them in Hell suffer while i am in heaven(if i am in heaven).
The suffer would be more painful than being burnt in the eternal fire.
I am weak , but i would make myself stronger at least by doing the basic of a christian everyday.It really hurts when you know your friends are not christian but you do noy tell him..
What would become of him/her?would would become of me?
I would cry..............
At least , if i tried,i would have no regret..........
This is life,die for nothing or live with something....
We can at least save one at least one person..at least this will not make us regret that we had never saved before....
Life camp is really a good camp,if anyone saw this blog please consider going,just think it as a fun camp and go!No one has regret for going.Just that the choices are in our own hands...
Everyone trying their best just to live for the present and not the future.I failed to pull many to the life camp , but i will continue to try no matter how stubborn they are.
I do not wish to see them in Hell suffer while i am in heaven(if i am in heaven).
The suffer would be more painful than being burnt in the eternal fire.
I am weak , but i would make myself stronger at least by doing the basic of a christian everyday.It really hurts when you know your friends are not christian but you do noy tell him..
What would become of him/her?would would become of me?
I would cry..............
At least , if i tried,i would have no regret..........
This is life,die for nothing or live with something....
We can at least save one at least one person..at least this will not make us regret that we had never saved before....
Life camp is really a good camp,if anyone saw this blog please consider going,just think it as a fun camp and go!No one has regret for going.Just that the choices are in our own hands...
last nite of 2009
It was a memorable night for me....eventhough i dnt knw what had i done= =First time in my 17 years i went to count down with my friends....the end of my secondary life....Really had a great time with my friends although i am very tired.Saw a lot of life camp campers and other friends....Just Hope that in the future me and my friends can still do the same thing again....
Happy New Year all....
May God Bless u ALL~~
Happy New Year all....
May God Bless u ALL~~
2008 and 2009
My year in 2008 and 2009.I learnt a lot of things,made a lot of friends,settled a lot of grudge between friends.I felt really accepted by people in my class.(maybe becoz i am a teacher's son).It went nice for me.I had tears and sorrows with the gyus and gals here.We go from 4 Edison to 5 newton then to 5 Hoover.Those days!Our class had made quite a lot of problems to the teachers and school- -
what can i say?our class has every kind of people.Smart,Strong,fast,computer pro,basketball pro,tennis pro,futsal/soccer pro,badminton pro,gaming pro u name it!
we go high together a lot of times. We even went to our classmate's villa to camp.
Those days were memorable.......
my First ALUMBA- -was there.....
But now......we have all graduated,we are going our seperate ways......
To say the truth,i really miss the class.We might not be the top class in school,but in my heart i am very clear,this is the best class i had ever been to for my entire 17 years life.
Tears always role down when the thoughts of we are separating comes into my mind.
But no matter where we are going,even if we are separated,one thing will never change.
We are all STUDENTS OF THE FIRST 5 HOOVER CLASS!
You are all my dearest classmates!
I believe this BOND will bring us together once more....
If my fellow classmates are watching this blog,i just wanna say sorry to all my friends if i had hurt you for the past few years,i myself know i am not mature enough and i am very poor with my communication skill,i admit i never think before i say or act,i am very sorry.....
You all have changed my life whether in mental or physical=-=you all have given me the memories no others could give.
I had also see everyone's change,mostly to good,and that made me happy as i know my friends had changed for the better.
Thank you all for accepting me as a friend.
Thank you all.
what can i say?our class has every kind of people.Smart,Strong,fast,computer pro,basketball pro,tennis pro,futsal/soccer pro,badminton pro,gaming pro u name it!
we go high together a lot of times. We even went to our classmate's villa to camp.
Those days were memorable.......
my First ALUMBA- -was there.....
But now......we have all graduated,we are going our seperate ways......
To say the truth,i really miss the class.We might not be the top class in school,but in my heart i am very clear,this is the best class i had ever been to for my entire 17 years life.
Tears always role down when the thoughts of we are separating comes into my mind.
But no matter where we are going,even if we are separated,one thing will never change.
We are all STUDENTS OF THE FIRST 5 HOOVER CLASS!
You are all my dearest classmates!
I believe this BOND will bring us together once more....
If my fellow classmates are watching this blog,i just wanna say sorry to all my friends if i had hurt you for the past few years,i myself know i am not mature enough and i am very poor with my communication skill,i admit i never think before i say or act,i am very sorry.....
You all have changed my life whether in mental or physical=-=you all have given me the memories no others could give.
I had also see everyone's change,mostly to good,and that made me happy as i know my friends had changed for the better.
Thank you all for accepting me as a friend.
Thank you all.
Rdy For Form 6
Today is a special day.Its the day be4 going to form 6.
But dnt knw what to do - -
dnt knw think of what= =
blur blur de- -
first time write in this blog- -
also no inspiration to write= =
thats all
But dnt knw what to do - -
dnt knw think of what= =
blur blur de- -
first time write in this blog- -
also no inspiration to write= =
thats all
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